After months of being bald, I have gotten a little fed up with scarves. My preference now is baseball hats. I mean, I will wear a scarf with certain outfits, but a baseball cap is easier and cooler. Cooler is important because one, I live in Florida and two, I have hot flashes that could melt an ice berg. In fact, I could probably be considered a cause to global warming. Let me tell you, when a hot flash hits, I want nothing on my head or the rest of me for that matter, but that’s frowned upon in public- hell people lose their shit over a breastfeeding boob, they’d go postal over a hot flashy naked lady fanning herself. Not that I have boobs so maybe I’d get a pass? Anyhow, you can totally tell when I am in a hat that I am bald. Not to mention, I frequently remove my hat when I am out. Because I am hot. Well let me tell you, some people aren’t very discreet when it comes to gawking. I guess that’s why its called gawking. The only reason I notice people staring is either they’ve managed to catch my eye or my honey gets upset because someone is staring. When I catch people, I make eye contact and smile real big at them. If they smile back, we’re golden. If they don’t…well I never really had much of a filter between my brain in my mouth but I have always engaged it enough to keep things polite. I do believe chemo has disintegrated my filter. Oh hell, who am I kidding, fucking cancer did that! So if you don’t smile back at me after you’ve made me notice you staring, I am going to say something. Usually along the lines of “haven’t you seen a bald woman before?” which usually makes the person look away or run away. HA! Don’t be so rude then with your staring, I mean seriously a bald woman and you can’t figure out why she might be bald? Or maybe that it really is rude as hell to stare?
Speaking of bald, I really am curious what’s going to grow back in. Evidently cancer patients have had hair of a total different color and texture grow back. They even have a name for the curls that may come in – Chemo Curls. Personally I hope mine comes in either all blonde (hey may as well have something completely wild!) or just all gray since I have been graying for a decade now. Its funny, I have never shied away from a short hair style before, but dammit if bald isn’t just frigging weird. I feel for men, really I do. For women its really unnatural. Throw in there no eyebrows or eyelashes and I really look like an alien. I keep saying my eyes without eyelashes look reptilian. I already have small, slanted eyes. No eyelashes just makes them look smaller!
So next time you are out and you see a bald woman, don’t stare. Just smile at her and maybe she’ll smile back. It may be the only smile of the day given what she is going through.
As always #FuckCancer